Update from Georgina
I had a phone call from that psychiatrist floozie. She wants me to go in for something she calls ‘couple counselling’.
I said listen love, I don’t think of much counselling full stop. And if you think I’m going to sit in a room with you and him talking about feelings and all that bullshit, well you got it wrong, big time, baby. (I didn’t used to talk like that, it’s Anastasia’s influence).
Anyway, I said to this shrink: he’s had every chance. He has only himself to blame. He always was a bit of a loner. He told me so himself. Never had many friends. He said he always felt ‘on the outside of things’. Well, I have tried to include him in everything – the family and such, but he is so awkward. He didn’t like going to family functions (my family – he hasn’t got any) or he went grudgingly. And he was always made welcome.
He said I never listened to him. Well what did he expect me to do! He was always moaning about something. Spent too much time thinking. I often said to him: if you thought less and did more you’d be much happier.
When he was dumped by his publisher he took to wandering around the house, aimlessly. Always getting under my feet when I was doing the Hoovering. And there were lots of jobs needed doing, but he was always too ‘depressed’. Now I am not saying there’s no such thing as depression but sometimes it can be a good excuse for doing nothing. And anyway, he was not too depressed to write; always writing, writing, writing: diaries, journals or whatever he called them. He left them lying around but I couldn’t be arsed reading them.
And then this ‘bridge’ business. I really don’t know if he intended to kill himself. Or if it was a ‘cry for help’ as the counsellors say. Well – as usual for George – he fudged it. Neither one thing or the other. Can’t make up his mind and in the end goes and slips. That is so typical.
And then this shrink woman says to me: Well now’s your chance to tell him how you feel.
I said: Not just now, dearie, I’m going to the cinema with my friend – and I hung up.
